Has my disease been active recently? In what way?

OF Course! In meetings I've heard: "Even when I'm not using, my disease is "out_the_back_doing_push-ups"", meaning my disease is always preparing for the day it gets to run my show again. Yet more specifically? Yes, my disease has been active recently:
I no longer see my disease as simply "Using Drugs". My disease is more subtle, more pernicious today. Surfing the internet looking at photo's of naked women, and negatively comparing them to the reality of the loving and real woman in my life today is also "diseased"; and I have done this again just last night. This could be the begining of a general dissatisfaction that will ultimately lead me to sabotaging all the good in my world. I know this thru past experience, not just coz... "I been told". I will talk to my sponsor about this AND ask my Dog for help (Dog being my quirky name for my Higher Power: God as some call him).

All forms of general dis-satifaction are my diseaseactively at work.

• thinking my job is not paid enough,
• that I don't get the recognition I deserve
• that my kid's don;t text ot ring me 'enough'...
• that i havn;t yet had enough sex partners (and should thus ditch the Mrs and go get MORE